To Kelsey

You ask me if I understand
Almost everyday
But what you don’t realize is that I’ve been there.
Not only have I been there
I created there.
You ask if it hurt when I did it
But what you don’t realize is that I am numb to pain
I invented pain.
Yes I know.
Yes it hurt.
You ask me when it ends
But I still haven’t learned that.
It never ends.
Eternity is a long ride, honey,
Buckle up.
Eventually, you learn to give up.
You think you found the exit,
But it was just a bigger room.
I wish I could find a window.
I wish I had the courage to jump.
That’s how we get here-
Lack of courage.
Here we are still.
It hurts.
I understand.
This is how it will stay
How it’s meant to be
Life.
Live.
Teach me.
But what you don’t realize is that I’m turning out the lights.
The search party isn’t coming.
We will be here alone together
Forever.
Life.
Live.
Love.
I taught you all I know- knew- wish I knew.
This, this is why we are here.
We are here because we never learned.
We never learned to love, live.
Same thing.
2009 history class is boring
J. D. Hunt