Don't You Dare Say I Told You So..

If I could give you a reason that sounded halfway decent I would. But at this point everything that comes from my head just sounds silly. Because you have denied me everything that I wanted from you, I have turned this into everything I didn’t want. I wasn’t searching for another heart break. I wasn’t hoping for another place to put my attention.
I just wanted to be wanted.
I hear that that is an average desire. I thought wanting to know without a doubt that someone was physically attracted to me- that someone desired me- would be enough. But I didn’t find that desire. I didn’t achieve that fulfillment. You kept me at arm’s distance and made me use my imagination.
And here we are, where neither of us wanted me to be.
I think this would be a good cut off point. As bad as it will hurt me, there really is no option but to flee. I will run from you with my face to the wind and my heart back in its cage. I thought I could find myself in your arms but I see that you won’t let me get there to try. So it’s best we both be on our way.
If you so happen to realize that this has turned into more for you than it was supposed to, you can speak up at any time. I hate looking foolish alone.
And I am embarrassed to admit that I am just not strong enough to walk away from you without getting what I wanted. I will never ask again though. I will never allow myself to look foolish in front of you again. You aren’t worth it.