Negative Nellie

I am a little disappointed, I shall admit, in hearing what I heard this morning. I suppose I should have caught it myself long ago. I suppose I should have worked on it as I grew, but I didn’t. This morning as we discussed books to possibly read this year, I had a comment on most of them because I have heard of, or read them. Suddenly from a corner of the room that I tend to avoid, I hear the comment that shut me up again- maybe for a while.
“You should be a critic. You have something negative to say about everything, but you say it intellectually so it turns out okay.” I turned slowly to the opposite direction and slipped into thought- as I often do. I felt terrible. I felt like I was incapable of saying anything positive about anything. I thought I was that giant negative Nellie that makes everybody feel bad. And I realized that I probably am.
I want to be better. I would like to learn the positive of all situations so I don’t seem like I am just walking around trying to make everyone miserable. I suppose we could call it a revelation- from hence forth I shall try my hardest to find a good, a silver lining- perhaps a copper lining, if you will- in every tiny little object, person, issue, or situation I come in contact with.
For the time being, I wouldn’t come to me with advice. The only advice I could probably give would be how much it sucks, how much it will suck, or how much it has sucked.
Come back in a week or so, then I can show you just how full your stupid glass is.